Sinking Stone

I'm glad that i could enjoy every moment, not with my own self again but with someone else. It helps a lot to covered up the misery within me. I could hide these sad feelings, and forget the problems for a while. Though it's hard, sometimes someone elses's smile could be our clarity, especially someone that you love. As simple as that.

I don't want to talk about love. It's makes me sick to think about that in this kind of position, seems stupid, but that is the truth. Yesterday was so much fun, i'm feel like being reborn, so refreshed. 

Sad thing is, this joy won't last forever until i came back to my room.

Being alone is teribbly scary. It's feels like a journey in to the unknown, where all the parts of my body won't reacting and disobey my order.

Now im lost in the middle of nowhere, and don't know how to get myself together. Suddenly i forgot how to breath. Brain keeps giving me a pressure. Guilty is smothering me. Wrath of reality pulling me so hard. Precious things slowly fade away. And my life now is same as a sinking stone.

That's what it feels like being all alone.

But, thanks to someone whose bring me here. That day was so much fun for me, no words could describe it. Because one of my objective accomplished.

I could leave a place like this anytime i want, but i wonder if i could see another place like this tommorow.